Friday, March 11, 2011

Part 16

I had become at ease with Mary's hands on my face. As long as she was in my right vision her presence felt safe and inviting. The other day she had brought a snake in the pen with her. I was petrified at first, just certain it would strike out at any moment. It never did though. She had dropped it on the ground over and over again. She had even tossed it around me in different directions. It never struck at me, it never hurt me. I was ok with her holding the snake, Mary seemed to have it well tamed. I was also ok with her touching me, my face and neck. However, I was not ok with both at the same time. She attempted to bring the snake with her as she approached me to stroke my face. I was having no part of that. If she wanted to put herself in danger by holding that snake that was her decision. I had accepted her tossing it around, but to bring it all the way to my side? No, I was having none of that.


Thankfully she put the snake away the next time she entered my pen. She approached me and began rubbing my face and neck as before. She even put a hand on either side of my neck simultaniously. It felt odd at first, when I felt her hands on both sides of me, but I didn't flee. I relaxed the longer she held them there. She ever so slowly worked her hand around my throat latch and behind my ears. She then brought them around my muzzle. I felt something brush over my nose, if felt different than her hands did, but I did not flee. I was aware of something happening, something different, but I held my ground. I let Mary continue to stand close to me and touch my face. She then spend a long time at my throat latch. I felt something tug slightly over my nose, but I continued to stand. She then stepped away and asked me to step off to the rail and begin to move around the pen. As I did I felt something odd. I had never felt it before. I tossed my head and it bounced lightly over the bridge of my nose. It did feel different, something was there, on my face that had not been before. It did not hurt though. Just felt a bit odd. She snapped her fingers and I wheeled in to turn and face her as I licked and chewed.


She approached me again. She had one hand behind her back as she walked up to me. I thought it seemed a bit odd, but it did not bother me enough to flee. I let her approach me. She rubbed her hands down my neck and shoulder and then my face and lastly down by my chin. I heard a quiet click and she softly stepped away.


As Mary stepped backwards towards the center of the pen I noticed something strange. The snake was now attached to me. It stretched out in a long line from my face directly to Mary's hand. I bowed my neck as I looked over at it with my right eye. Mary pushed her energy towards my hip and sent my feet moving forward. The snake remained attached to me as I moved around the pen. I could see it out of my right eye and it did frighten me. However, I knew what was happening, the way Mary was pushing me with her energy around the pen. We had done this before, this made sense and I liked it when things made sense. Even though the snake was attached to my face I took comfort in the fact that Mary was sending me around the pen like before. She would melt her body, looking to the ground and I would melt mine and slow my gaits. She would then step towards my hip, looking at it intently and I would lengthen my stride adding impulsion with each step. I focused on Mary, her body language. I focused on what I knew and what made sense and I ignored the snake that hung limp from my face.


As I began to fall into the rhythm of our movements. Shortening and lengthening my strides as I watched Mary's body and eyes guide me. It was relaxing, this was familiar. Familiar is good.


Then I felt something odd. I felt pressure. It was all over my face. Behind my ears and over my nose. Not low enough to cut my wind off, just pressure all over my head. I panicked and I ran. I ran away from the pressure. It is the natural thing for a horse to do, run away from pressure. So I ran. My legs gained speed and my stride quickened as I attempted to escape the pressure on my face. For a bit all I could think about was running away. I knew I had to flee. I had to get away.

Then I heard a soft sound in the distance. It seems so far away at first, as all my focus was on running and not the least on paying attention to my surroundings. But I gradually began to decipher it more clearly. It was that rhythmical tone, that sound that Mary would make when I was relaxed, when I licked and chewed in content. I turned my ear towards the noise to take it in. In the same moment I noticed Mary in the center of the pen. I guess she had been there all along, I don't know. I was much to busy focusing on getting the heck out of here to pay any attention to her. But she was still there. She was gazing down at the ground, melting her body as dropping her head low. I watched her and I continued to listen to the soft tones. Their rhythm was slowing. The tones were becoming lower and more drug out with each stride I took. I felt my feet begin to slow to match the cadence of the tone. I felt my body begin to melt to mirror Mary's and I felt myself begin to relax as I slowed my speed. The pressure on my face remained the same throughout. It did not increase when I speed up, but did not lesson either. It remained constant.


Then an amazing thing happened. Once I slowed my feet and my speed, the pressure stopped. All at once it was gone. I dropped my head low and licked and chewed in sweet relief. After I had settled a bit. Mary urged me forward again. Once I had picked up the speed, again I felt the pressure on my face. This time I was not as frightened as before. I still sped up and began to run away from the pressure at first, but I quickly noticed Mary sinking her body low and gazing down. I heard the soft tone, slowing it's rhythm. I slowed mine to match it and instantaneously the pressure released from my face! It was like magic. When I slowed my feet, instead of running faster the pressure stopped. It happened again and again. Each time I slowed my feet the pressure released.


Mary sent me off again, around the rail at a brisk trot. After circling the pen twice I felt the pressure on my face. This time I heard no soft tones and Mary did not melt her body as before. She just stood there, giving me no signal at all. All I felt was the pressure. I thought about before when I had slowed my feet in response to Mary's body language and gaze with her eyes and the soft tones of her voice. I thought about how when I had slowed in response to that, how the pressure on my face stopped. Instantly. As I circled around at my forward trot feeling the pressure squeeze my face, I slowed my feet. Much to my delight, the pressure stopped. Instantly it stopped. I relaxed and dropped my head as Mary began to babble those kind words in a soft, relaxed tone. I licked and chewed and relished in how I had made the pressure stop. On my own, I had made it stop.

Part 15

Mary continued to do things to seem to try and get me to approach her. She would send me off away from her and then ask me to spin around and face her yet again. Sometimes the forward motion that I would build as she sent me away would keep me driving forward as I faced her. I would step in closer to her almost be accident. Sometimes I would move in so quickly that I would get so close to her that I frightened myself once I stopped and I would step a few feet back to a more comfortable distance away. I still was content with our invisible line that connected us, but had no desire to make it any shorter than it already was. I was intent on facing her though, when she snapped her fingers I knew that meant I was to face her. I was certain of that.


She began walking all around the round pen, walking over things, even running. I never took my attention off her. I would whip my body around as quickly as I needed to in order to face her at all times. She would run around me so fast I would practically have to spin to keep up. Then she would step away and ask me to approach her. I would take a step or two, but no more. I was not comfortable walking all the way up to her, period. I was just not.


I did not mind her approaching me though. I had grown accustomed to her walking slowly to my right shoulder and putting her hands on me. I was ok with that. She would gradually move her hands over my body. Each time I became tense she would bring them back to that spot on the right of my neck. It was a relief when she moved her hands back there. I knew what to expect when they were there and I liked that. She even started touching my face a bit. First around my jaw and even under my throat latch to my left jaw. I was ok with this.


Then I panicked. I felt trapped, like I could not breath. My wind was being taken away from me. Mary have brushed her hand across my muzzle and it send me into a panic. I shot away from her, thinking of how I just had managed to save myself from certain death. I know I need air to breath. I was not able to be ignorant enough to allow her to block my wind. I am no fool.


As I shot away, contemplating my near death experience, I saw her step away as well. Once again, even in the flurry of my fear, it draw me back in. I had become quite used to that move. I knew when she moved away from me like that, I was to fill the space, to met her back in the middle. She was always kind and quite when I would do so. She was the same every time. I liked that.


As horses we can not breath through our mouths like two leggeds or cats or dogs do. We can only breath through our nose. Imagine if you felt your nose being pinched and your airway cut off. You would open your mouth and breath in I suppose, assuming you are a two legged that is. I imagine you are. Well, I can not do that, when my nostrils are covered and I can not breath in air, I have no way to breath at all. Naturally this panics me, it would any horse with the slighted desire to live. When I felt Mary's hands brush over my muzzle that is all I could think of. It felt as if something was going to block my wind. It was terrifying.When terrified I flee, as any sensible hose would.


We were back as before, standing side by side, her hand on my neck. She continued to pass her hand over my muzzle. Each time she would do it was quick. She slipped her hand across my muzzle then immediately moved her hand back to my neck. Each time I became a bit more at ease with her hand there. She never did try to cut my wind off, even though I was terrified she would. Rightfully so I do believe. No she would just quickly pass her hand over where I was most concerned, my muzzle and settle back to my neck. I finally became less worried over it and she began leaving her hand on my nose longer each time. Until, she just left it there, resting over my nose. We stood quietly like that listening to one another breath and feeling the quiet energy from one anothers body.

Part 14

We spent many hours in that circular pen together. Mary would approach my right shoulder and after backing away a bit I would eventually stand and she would rest her hand on my side. She even reached under my neck and rubbed my left side a bit. It felt a little odd for her hand to be over there, but I didn't mind. As long as I didn't have to look at her with my left eye. She was much less attractive over there to me, down right ugly in fact. No, I did not like how she looked at all over there. It was amazing the transformation she made when she was in my right vision though. She was much more appealing, she appeared soft and kind over there. I much preferred that to the scary unsightly two legged I saw on my left!


She would step away from me a lot too, encouraging me to step towards her to fill the space and maintain the same distance between us. I would step towards her when she stepped away, but I went no further than that. She seemed to want me to continue approaching her. She bowed her head low and submissive, but I would not budge. I understood the need to fill the space between us when she stepped away. It felt natural to move towards her when her energy moved away from me. My energy just followed hers. But to continue to move in closer, once she had stopped, no that did not seem necessary. So I just stood and watched.


She did all sorts of things to try and interest me. I thought to myself how in my younger years as a foal, how curious I would have been. My child-like curiosity would have overtaken my common sense for sure. I would have explored her. I would have not been able to help myself from approaching her. But I am every bit of 6 years old and in each and every one of those years I have grown wiser. I outgrew that childish ignorance and constant desire to explore.


I was young, only an adolescent myself when I became pregnant. That happened often in the wild. As soon as a filly reached puberty the herd stallion would breed her. It did not matter to him that she was still growing, still a baby herself. So even though I was young and still very much a child I was driven by my maternal instincts to care for my own daughter and I grew up quickly. Having a child, a foal of my own, it changed me. I had to put her best interest and safety above all else. I had to set an example for her, to protect her, to care for her. She may very well be grown up and living a life of her own now, but that changes nothing about the individual that I have become, because of her presence in my life. Had I remained the curious youngster I once was, what good would I have been as a protector of my foal? No, I had to grow up fast and I had forgotten none of that. Mustangs never forget.


Mary continued to seem to try and spark some curiosity in me. She hung things on the rail for me to explore, but I never explored them. I looked, but did not touch. Once she even laid down, sprawled out on her back in the center of my pen. She lay there, motion-less as I watched her. I was confused, honestly I was a bit concerned. I had begun to like her, in my right eye that is. Her laying motionless on the ground like that seemed wrong. I did not want to, but I mustered up the courage to approach her. I walked ever so slowly towards her, stopping a good three feet away. I stretched my neck out as far as it would go. I just barely could reach. Stretching my neck out long and low I felt my muzzle make contact with her skin. I blew hard through my nostrils taking in her smell. Within seconds I snatched my head back and shot away. She was breathing, I could tell. She was ok. She was just going to have to get up on her own accord. It sure didn't seem natural for her to lay like that, but there was nothing I could do so I just watched her lay there from the outer edge of the pen. She laid for a while longer then slowly crawled back up to her feet. I'm not sure what her point was in all of that. Whatever it was it made little sense to me. If she thought I was going to go investigate her on my own accord, she had another thing coming. I had learned much to much in the wild to fall for a trick like that.

Part 13

I had stood in this pen for a few days now. Mary would come in at least twice a day, sometimes three. I mostly rested eating my hay with my herd-mate Samantha P. She would ask me to face her and follow her as she walked around. She would approach me and I would back away until I reached the paneled fence, then I would hold my ground. I could have shot away, but I didn't. I let her touch me. But only where I was comfortable. I still much preferred her on my right side.

Once she even pulled my mane over my neck and began to play with it. She said it was all tangled up and needed to be brushed. The sensation I felt as she touch my mane felt different than when her hand rested on my skin. I could see that her hands were close to my skin, only inches away as she played with my mane. It bothered me for her hands to be so close, yet not rest on my side. I was unsure of what she might do next when her hands just floated in the air beside my neck. I much preferred to feel them lay on my skin than to see them dance around in the corner of my eye as if the could shot off in any direction without notice. I backed away from her when she first tried this. It pulled at my skin and tickled me. I just could not relax with her hands hovering there beside me. After I had backed away again and again Mary began resting her hand on my neck as she played with my mane. I liked this better. I was still unsure about the sensations I felt as she tugged slightly at my mane hair, but I was much more at ease with her hand resting on my side as she did so.

She played with my hair for the longest time. Said I had wind knots as she would tug gently at each individual strand. I wasn't sure what wind knots were. They didn't bother me. Apparently they did her, another one of those strange two legged things I suppose. As long as her hand rested on my neck I didn't mind her playing with my hair. The longer we stood like that, the more relaxed I became. The soft tugging on my mane actually began to feel good. I was really beginning to feel comfort in her hand, just laying quietly against my skin. I began to close my eyes and rested my leg.

As I was about to drift of to sleep in the warm sun with Mary playing in my hair something terrifying happened. In an instant I saw something beside my face move quickly. It was about 2 feet long and about the circumference of a foals leg. I wasted no time and darted quickly away, fleeing the impeding danger. I left Mary standing still in the dust. She had a few of my mane hairs tangled in her fingers and she chuckled at me. "Really?" she said. "I'm sorry, I was just scratching my ear..." Mary had reached up with her arm to scratch her ear apparently, well to me it was terrifying. I did not waste any time trying to figure out what was happening. All I knew is something moved very quickly in the corner of my eye, close to my body and I knew how to keep myself safe from danger. When danger presents itself, you flee. You do not think, then flee. That takes to long. By the time you do all that thinking you have already become the meal of a mountain lion. No you do Not think. You Flee!

This shook me up quite a bit and honestly, I wasn't so crazy about letting Mary approach me again. I know she said she was only "Scratching her ear" but that meant nothing to me. In my mind she did something scary, something I was not prepared for and it made me second guess my new found trust in her. I watched her nervously to see what would happen next.

She began doing what we had done that first time she entered the pen. She sent me forward around the rail, she stepped in front of my shoulder to change direction, she stepped away and asked me to face her again as she snapped her fingers. I began to relax, I did not forget what had happened, no I still remember. It terrifies me to think of that moment in time. But I took great comfort in this moving around the round pen. This facing one another. I had become quite comfortable with this. Every time I stood and faced Mary good things happened to me. She would hum those rhythmic sounds. We would rest together. I felt safe in this position and I felt myself melting back into that safe place I had come to seek.

Mary did approach me again, I must admit, I was nervous. I just could not let go of how her arm so quickly moved beside my face like that and sent me fleeing into a panic. She remained very quite. She moved calm and slow. Slower even than before. As she reached out to touch me I felt the tension rise inside, but as soon as her hand made contact on my neck I took a sigh of relief. Her hand resting there gave me a similar sensation to what I felt facing her in the middle of the pen. I drew comfort from it. She gently pulled some of my mane over to the right of my neck. She began working her fingers through it again, being careful to keep a steady hand resting on my skin. She did not try to scratch her ear again and I was thankful for that.

Wednesday, March 9, 2011

Part 12

The critter that was round with no neck apparently liked me. "Samantha P" was what Mary said her name was. She would come to my pen every day. She went right to my water tub each time and splashed it all around until it made a puddle in the black dirt. Then she would roll. She would roll and scratch for the longest time sometimes laying there in the mud for hours. She would waddle over to my pile of hay and eat with me. I actually was beginning to like the funny looking thing. I never tried to scare her away, I didn't mind her sharing my hay with me. She never seemed to get in a hurry and was quite confident in herself. I respected that.

Mary added a bucket to my pen today. She put soaked alfalfa hay in it and topped it with some sort of brown crumbles. I liked the hay, even though it was mushy and wet. I remembered eating alfalfa out in Colorado at the holding facility. My herd mates and I had alfalfa free choice at all times. It was like a never ending buffet compared to roaming for miles to find forage in my Wyoming days. The taste of the alfalfa was familiar to me, I liked it. The brown crumbles on the other hand, well I hadn't a clue what they were. They smelled strong, a sweet smell, very different from anything I had eaten before. I figured I better air on the side of caution and eat around them. I carefully picked the Alfalfa out and left the brown crumbles in the bucket. Before long my new friend smelled the sweet odor and approached my bucket. She wedged her snout inside and somehow managed to lift her front feet up off the ground in order to reach the crumbles inside. She snorted and grunted as she ate every last morsel.

I relaxed for most of the day with my new friend until late afternoon when I spotted Mary approaching the pen. My eyes grew large as I saw her draw near. Much to my dismay she was carrying with her a long snake. It was huge. She had it coiled up in her hand and it's tail was dragging the ground. I lifted my head erect and held my body ridged as I watched her draw even closer. She entered the pen stopping in the center and snapped her fingers asking for my attention. I focused on her and the snake dead on, facing them but not about to approach. I heard her mumble those rhythmic tones, but it did not relax me. I was much to concerned over the snake to let anything disrupt my focus. I could feel my heart race as I wondered when it would strike.

Mary stood still in the center of the pen and opened her hands. Letting the snake drop to the sand floor. It made a thumping sound as it landed and I sky rocketed up in the air and took of to flee from the obvious danger. The circular rail guided my flee into a curve once again and I found myself unable to escape. Mary quickly snapped her fingers and I spun around to lock eyes on them once again. My heart raced, it felt as if it could jump from my chest as I watched her kneel to pick the snake back up. It was limp as she lifted it and it hung at her side. Again she dropped it to the ground, again I jumped and attempted to flee, but no such luck. I was trapped in this pen with this crazy two legged and a snake that was apparently her accomplice.

Time and again she dropped the snake to the ground and time and again I jumped high and attempted to flee. Each time she snapped her fingers asking me to come back and face her and each time I did. As this went on I began to realize that nothing happened when the snake landed on the ground. It never did try to strike at me, it just landed with a thump and lay still until Mary brought it back to life by picking it up. It was as if Mary controlled the snake and every move it made. She continued to lift it and drop it again, after a while I stopped jetting away. I would feel my body jump in place, but I held my ground. After a while longer the jumps became flinches and then they settled to nothing. I just stood still and watched her pick the snake up and drop in on the ground...over and over and over again. I figured it must be dead or if not Mary certainly had control over it. Any snake I knew would have struck out long before now. I decided to rest my leg as she continued to pick up the snake just to drop it once more.

Part 11

We stood there like that for quite some time. Mary's hand gently pressed against my neck.

Then, ever so slowly, she moved it.

The tension rose inside me as I felt her hand slide down my neck. It built to the point that I was on the verge of jetting away when, much to my relief, she stopped. Now just resting her hand on my skin as before. My body melted a bit as I took in a breath of air and released it into a small sigh. I was far from totally relaxed with Mary's hand touching my neck, but I was much more relaxed when it was still. The movement felt odd and I was not sure what to expect from it. After I had relaxed a bit once again Mary slowly lifted her hand off my neck and moved it a bit higher. I saw every move she made. Even though I was tense and afraid I stood my ground, ready to flee, but holding my own to see what would happen next.

Her hand ever so slowly landed on my neck once again, her fingertips first, then the rest of her hand melted onto my skin. In the first instant of contact I felt a quiver move through my body. But only moments later as I felt the warmth of her hand quietly resting on me I began to feel more at peace. I did like the rhythmical pulse I could feel from her as we stood connected. I gradually began to accept her presence so close beside me as I shifted my weight from hugging the rail, to a more comfortable stance bearing my weight equally on all fours.

We shared this space for a long time, standing only a foot apart, her hand resting on my neck. Every once in a while it would gently sliding down a bit only to lift, move up and touch me again. It took me a while to grow comfortable with her hand moving against my side. Once she pushed her hand slightly up my neck, letting her fingers trail against my haircoat instead of lifting them off as before. This I did not like. My hair coat lays flat against my skin and the lay of the hair grows down from my head all the way across my hips towards my tail. When I felt Mary's fingers run briefly against the lay of my hair it startled me. It felt prickly against my neck and I did not like it one bit. A horse's skin is highly sensitive, we can feel a house fly land on our back and we will rapidly twitch our skin to rid ourselves of the nuisance. Well in that moment Mary's fingers felt like that fly as they pushed my hair up in the opposite direction of it's growth. My skin quivered uncontrollably and I jumped back in surprise at her unexpected move. Mary stepped back quietly herself and I felt that familiar draw to fill the space and approach her again.

The next time she touched me she was careful to stroke with the lay of my haircoat. She worked her hands down my neck and even my shoulder. She lightly stroked my right jaw, just beneath my eye. When she tried to exceed those perimeters I would become tense and send my energy away from her, but she was respectful of that. She never pushed me so far as to the point of moving my feet, only my energy. She would move her hand to the very edge of the places I felt secure and just in the moment before I decided to flee she would bring her hand back into the center of my neck. I had grown comfortable with her hand there. It was a relief to me when she moved back to that area. I would settle my stance so that all four hooves shared the same weight and feel my body melt as I sighed.

It was odd to me how something like her hand resting on my neck had been so terrifying, yet now I was finding comfort in it. Something as simple as a quiet resting hand and a soft rhythmical pulse against my skin. Yes, I was beginning to find comfort in this two legged. Mary slowly took a step backwards letting her hand drop quietly of my side and she walked away.

I watched her as she left my pen. She had walked quietly out and shut the door behind her, looking back to me with a sparkle in her eye. She then turned and ran towards the barn, she was yelling, "Mike, Mike..I touched her! She let me touch her, it was amazing!" She seem very excited and full of energy as she bounced away. I thought to myself that I was thankful she had not bounced up and down like that beside me. She had been calm beside me and I liked her that way.

Tuesday, March 8, 2011

I stood along the rail of my pen while Mary was gone. I watched the horses around me. They all seemed relaxed as the quietly ate their hay. A few of them had laid down in the warm sun. I noticed the round critter with no neck was across the field. She was close to one of the horses that was sprawled out on his side. She pushed the black dirt around with her snout as the horses that surrounded her slept. They did not seem to think she was a threat. It still seemed odd to me, but I was gradually getting used to these strange critters. They had not seemed to be dangerous yet. Everyone else seemed to think they were ok. I dropped my head and ate some more of my hay.

The sun was starting to drop in the sky. The soft light blanketed the pasture, lighting up the grass to an iridescent glow. I watched the horses graze and thought to myself how wonderful it would be to graze in that field. The grass looked as if it went on forever. I noticed a horse walking beside Mary towards the pasture. She opened the gate and he followed her inside. She then set him free. He dropped down immediately and rolled. I noticed he only managed to flip twice. That made me chuckle inside. When he got up he trotted off to where two other horses were standing and dropped his head to eat. I thought to myself how interesting that was. How the horse had walked along side of Mary, seemingly relaxed and content, and how she set him free to eat and roll at his own free will. I would not be that comfortable with her that close to me. She was within two feet of that horse, no my invisible line between myself and Mary was a good fifteen feet. It sure would be nice to eat that green grass though.

Mary continued walking up from the field. She was coming back up the hill towards me. As she approached she said, "Do you think we could try it just one more time?" Try it? I wondered what she meant by that. She entered the pen.

She stepped towards the middle and snapped her fingers, I immediately faced her. I knew what that meant. She walked around me and I followed, keeping my body aligned so that I was facing her. Facing her but still not letting my left eye see. I had much rather her be in my right vision. She seemed ok with that this time. As Mary walked around me she would sometimes step away as well. I would step towards her to fill the space and she would smile and speak in those soft rhythmical tones. It was so relaxing, I licked and chewed. Every so often she would step in closer to me. I would become a bit tense, but I did not back up or shoot away. The longer she stayed there and walked side to side the more comfortable I got. Before long she was standing only three feet from me. I really never noticed her moving closer, I just gradually felt more comfortable with her presence there.

We were standing still, Mary at my right shoulder three feet away. Her hands were limp at her sides. I was relaxed, but very aware of her presence beside me. She took a small step closer. I took a small step away. I just could not bring myself to be comfortable with her that close. She again stepped towards me. I again stepped away. We did this, ever so slowly, until I reached the rail on my left. I thought about jetting away. I was slightly trapped, between Mary and the rail. I was not totally relaxed with Mary being this close, but I was not so frightened as to jet off. I decided to stand there. We both remained still. As time grew on I became more at ease and felt my body relax. Mary eased in closer. I felt a bit of apprehension swell up in me and shifted my weight back, but did not take a step. Again we stood.

Mary was now within a foot from me. She slowly, ever so slowly raised her hand. My body grew tense and I shifted my weight to hug the rail. Just before I shot away Mary stopped. She held her hand still in mid air, just at the edge of my comfort zone. Had she moved an inch closer I would have been gone, but I held my own and watched as her hand rested in mid air, only a mear 6 inches from the side of my neck. We remained like this for quite some time. I gradually become more comfortable with her being there and began to relax.

Mary slowly drifted her hand closer to my neck. Her fingers hung down relaxed with her palm down. Her hand was within two inches from my skin. I could feel the energy from it. I watched, I felt, but I did not move. Slowly I saw Mary out stretch her fingers towards me. I felt two fingers land softly on the side of my neck. They slide down my neck only a few inches as I grew ridged and went to jump back. In that very moment, as my energy sailed backwards away from Mary she stepped back away from me. It was as if we were connected by that invisible line. I felt my body surge back forward to fill the space she had created so quickly. I found myself back as I was before. She was at my shoulder, only a foot away. I relaxed as I remembered how long we had stood like this, I was ok with her here.

Again she slowly lifted her hand. I watched, but did not move. She stretched her fingers back out and my eyes widened as she rested them back on my skin. My body grew tense and I shifted my weight back, but did not move. I quivered slightly as I stood still and let her fingers rest on my neck. I felt their warmth as her fingers laid still. I could feel that they were real, a part of a living being. They were full of life, not dead and empty like the metal panel that brushed my left side. She slowly eased her entire hand against my neck. All five fingers slowly applied soft pressure and then her palm landed quietly in between them. I could feel the added heat that was caused by her hand covering more surface area on my neck. I could even feel her pulse gently touching me. It was rhythmical, I liked that it was rhythmical. She rested her hand there for quite some time. I gradually began to take comfort in it. It did not hurt, the energy I felt exuding from her was kind. Gentle and kind.

Part 9

We stood for quite a while. Watching one another softly. I had rested my hind leg and my head hung low and relaxed. We were facing one another, but I still stayed oriented so that Mary remained in my right eye. I was becoming very relaxed with her there. She was speaking to me in a way I understood. She had not lied to me. When she led me to believe she was going to do something, like step over to my right and expect me to follow, she did just that...stepped over to my right and allowed me to follow. She did not force herself into my space, invading my comfort zone. She only stepped just as far to my right as I was comfortable. It was as if she would go to the very edge of that spot, the very edge of my comfort zone. Then she would remain there. She would be quiet and calm, just waiting patiently for that edge of my comfort zone to widen slightly and when it did she would enter it. Slowly, ever so slowly broadening it wider. She gradually would move around my right side, encouraging me to turn and face her. I appreciated her honesty. I was beginning to feel like I knew what to expect from her and that was comforting.

When two leggeds interact with us and are not conscientious of the way we speak, it is confusing. As horses, our language is primarily through our bodies. We watch each of our herd mates at all times. Always being aware of what our fellow equines are thinking and feeling by their bodies. When two leggeds surround us and ignore our primary means of communication it is well, scary. I mean one of my fellow herd mates can bless me out with nothing but the slighted shift of an ear. Imagine how it would feel to me, as a horse, when these two leggeds are giving me all these mixed signals through their body language. There can be some pretty nasty cuss words said, and I do not appreciate it. I am not even sure they realize it sometimes, the two leggeds, but we do. We always see their body language. It is All we see.

I had grown very comfortable with Mary in my right eye. She would walk circles all the way around me and I would pivot on my haunches to follow her. Crossing my front legs freely as they stepped around. Mary would circle me to my left too. I would circle faster this way. I had to be sure I stayed ahead of her to keep her in that right eye. She would try to sneak across my face and into my left eye, but I was to quick for her. I could spin much faster than she could walk around me. I heard her laugh, she said "Well aren't those some pretty reining spins" I didn't know what that meant, but it seemed to make her happy. It is funny what these two leggeds get excited about. Horses flipping over when they roll, spinning circles...yes, these are some odd folks. No doubt about that.

After a bit longer of spinning on my haunches as Mary circled me she stepped towards me and pushed me away. I took back off and was met by the circular rail again, so I followed it and around I went. Mary had pushed me to track left this time. We went around a few laps and I noticed her back away from me, as she did I felt myself filling the space to keep our invisible line the same length. This time she was in my left eye. She had to back away further than she did on my right, in order to keep me magneting in towards her, but she did just that. As she continued to step away I continued to fill the space. Before long I was facing her again. I quickly shifted my stance so she was back in my right eye. Whew, that was a close one! She chuckled as I licked and chewed with Mary safely occupying my right eye once again. After I had rested a bit she pushed me back out away and tracking left again. Again she stepped back away and I filled the space, again reverting quickly to my stance that put her in my right eye as soon as I could. I was gradually getting more comfortable with her in my left, but it no where near compared to the peace I was beginning to feel when she was on my right. We stopped and rested once again.

Mary backed away from me as she stepped slightly to my right. This time when I went to move to the side to follow her I took a step towards her as well. I saw a large smile light up on Mary's face and she mumbled those soft words again in that rhythmic voice that relaxes me. I licked and chewed as I took a deep breath and let out a sigh. With that I saw her turn to walk away.

Sunday, March 6, 2011

Lindsay's Story 8

We had been playing this dance so to speak in the circular pen for about 20 minutes or so. Mary would step in front of my shoulder and I would change direction. She would look at my hip and it would send me more forward, then when she melted her body and looked at the ground, I melted mine to mirror hers and slowed my speed, licking and chewing each time I relaxed a bit more and understood Mary's movements. So far when I changed direction Mary would step forward, moving her body in front of my shoulder, but remaining the same distance from me. I would respond by turning away from her and into the fence to head the other way.





The next time it was different though, I was tracking right, at a relaxed trot, Mary slowly stepped back away from me as she stepped in front of my shoulder at the same time. By this point, I had grown accustomed to Mary remaining the same distance from me, so I felt my body drifting towards hers. Almost as if an invisible line connected us. I found myself moving in, away from the rail to to fill the space so that we remained the same distance apart. At the same time she had stepped a bit in front of my shoulder, so naturally my speed had slowed and I had prepared to change direction. But this time I found myself turning to face her, rather than turning away from her as I had been. I was very comfortable with this, it felt normal and made sense to me. She was on my right side and I was beginning to like her there.



But then a scary thing happened. In a split second Mary moved. She had been in my right eye and just as I was growing comfortable with her there and even moving in on my own free will to keep her there she disappeared! No longer was she in my right eye and before I had a chance to do anything, BAM she was there in my left eye! I was not nearly as comfortable having her there in my left, especially facing her like this and being away from the rail that I had been hugging so tight. I jetted off away from her, back to the perimeter of the pen, now tracking left as we had just changed direction. It was a bit unsettling at first, to have her appear out of nowhere in the vision of my left eye like that. It must of happened as I changed direction, must have been when I turned to face her. Yes, that was it, Mary had disappeared out of my right eye's vision and appeared in the vision of my left. It happened as I had changed my direction by turning in to face her. Whew, that was a lot to digest. I was happy to be back on the rail and was more relieved when Mary drifted her gaze back to the round pen floor and I softened my body and slowed my gaits as I dropped my head and licked and chewed. Sweet relief.





We were now tracking left and Mary again stepped away from me as she simultaneously stepped in front of my shoulder. I imagine she was hoping for the response she got from me when she was on my right side and I had magneted in towards the middle of the pen. But, no such luck for her. We were now tracking left and Mary was in my left eye, along with all those other two leggeds that were ingrained in my left eye's memory. As I said, we Mustangs never forget. I did change direction, but I turned into the rail and away from Mary to do so. What was really comforting though was this put Mary back in my right eye. Oh, how I was really starting to like her there! She once again stepped away from me as she also stepped in front of my shoulder. I remembered this move from before, I had enjoyed coming in off the rail to remain the same distance from Mary as she had stepped away. I was happy to do it again and I allowed my body to freely curve towards the center of the pen. As I was drifting towards Mary to keep our invisible line the same length I noticed she drifted even further away from me. As she did, I felt my body continue to draw closer, I really felt comfort in having her at this same distance from me and as she drew away I could not help but fill the space to keep us the same distance apart. Mary drifted all the way to the opposite side of the pen and I found myself facing her. My body was not exactly square and lined up with hers, but slightly cocked to the side. This way my right eye could take her in and my left knew nothing of it. I stood and watched as Mary stood quietly on the rail. She let her eyes drift to the floor and her body melted. I sighed and licked and chewed as I stood and watched her quietly. The relaxation my body and mind experienced was so satisfying. I just stood and savored the moment.





We stood there for at least a few minutes and I watched Mary the whole time. Then, out of nowhere, she moved! It startled me at first and my body rose ridged, but I did not flee this time, I watched. She slowly stepped to my right, staying the same distance from me, but moving parallel to me just a few feet. My gaze followed her and I felt my head and neck turn to face her. Again she stood still. Then she slowly stepped back to where she had been and I willingly followed her with my eyes and face, licking and chewing once again. She never stepped towards my left, which was a wise decision as I guarantee you I would have shot off as soon as she appeared in that eye, no she remained in my right eye and I was thankful for that.





She continued to walk a few steps over to my right and I continued to follow her with my eyes and face. She again would step back to her original spot and I would follow her back with my gaze. She did this for quite some time. After a while it even got a bit boring. I mean I know she's a two legged and all and typically I am very cautious as to what one of those is about to do. So I typically watch them intently, but I was becoming so at ease with her movements I began to feel it wasn't as necessary to follow her every move with my attention. So the next time she stepped to the side I did not follow her with my eyes, as a matter of fact I turned my face and looked at one of the horses beside me eating hay. As soon as I let my eyes wander I heard a sharp snap from Mary! I shot my head back around lining up my eyes with hers dead on. She was acting like the boss mare in my old herd did....I guess I'd better keep my attention on her.



Back in White Mountain, Wyoming my herd had a leader. She was an older mare and had been out in the wild all of her life. She was our "Boss Mare" The lay of the land was engraved in her mind and she had many experiences embedded in her memory. She was very intelligent and well educated. We all looked to her for guidance. She was highly respected among us all, even the herd Stallion, my sire. He even respected her and would move out of the way to allow her to pass if she so wished. We watched her at all times, each one of us always remained within eyesight of her. When we had grazed a certain area long enough that it's resources were depleted it was her, the Boss Mare that made the decision to move on. All she had to do was start moving, heading in the direction she felt we should go. We all would move along with her. It was as if this imaginary line connected us to her. We wanted to remain within this safe distance from her. When we were within that distance we knew we were safe.





As I stood at attention, watching Mary intently she slowly took another step laterally to my right. She went further this time than before. I tried to follow her with my eyes and face, but my head can only turn so far. I stood for a while like that, with my neck circled around to the side so that I could give Mary my full attention. Each time I tried to look away from her those sharp snaps started again and I would immediately look back at her once again with certainty. As long as I faced her there were no sharps snaps, only Mary. She would talk sometimes, it sounded like babbles and the words did not really matter nor make sense, but her tone did. I loved that it was rhythmical and soft. I found peace in it's consistency. The consistency of this sing songy voice, humming the same rhythm over and over again. I couldn't help but want to mirror that rhythm with my own. It was peaceful.





So after standing quite some time with my neck circled around to the side in order to follow Mary's gaze, I decided it would be easier to let my feet follow as well. So I slowly stepped to the side so that my body was aligned with Mary's as it had been before. Facing her once again, but careful not to let my left eye know. It was so comforting to watch Mary with my right eye, no need to mess things up by letting lefty in on it.





I could see Mary smile, she continued to babble in that rhythmic tone and I licked and chewed. I even dropped my hip to let my right leg rest. This was a safe place to be, I figured I might as well stay here a while.

Saturday, March 5, 2011

Lindsay's Stories

I have began writing stories from Lindsay's perspective...or my best feeling of it anyway =) I have 7 so far and they are listed as "Notes" on Lindsay's FB page. The one for America's Favorite Trail Horse. Here is a direct link... https://www.facebook.com/pages/Lindsays-Faith-Mustang-for-Americas-Favorite-Trail-Horse/178750158831398

I thought I would add the stories here as well for those of you that might not see her Facebook page.

I will cut and paste them below.....

PART 1

I thought I'd fill you all in on a bit of my history. I was born on the range in White Mountain, Wyoming. Wyoming is a cold, cold place...many times my water source came from eating snow! It is wide open land, few wind blocks and trees. Check out this link http://www.pbase.com/bander/image/83387718 It shows Mustangs in my home land. These are very likely my kin. See the bay roan herd sire...Mary is certain he is my Daddy. The background is just amazing to see. This is where I lived, in the wild until I was coming a four year old. I was in foal and was herded up by the BLM to go to a holding facility and have my baby then be adopted. I had a bay filly later that year, she stayed by my side for a year and I nursed her and took care of her, teaching her everything I could about the communication of the horse. How to "speak" to her herd mates through body language, "Horse Speak" I learned so much living in the wild, running with my herd. I learned how to use my body to communicate by even the slightest move. I did my best to teach all of this to my daughter. When it became time for her to grow up and move away, she was adopted out to a home of her very own. I stayed behind, hoping to find a forever home myself. I was hauled to adoptions and each time my number came up, no one was interested. I am not sure why, but time and again I was turned down. It looked as if I was headed to long term holding where I would live out my days or possibly be sold cheap to no telling who and end up God knows where. Well, thankfully the Mustang Heritage Foundation started to first ever, Supreme Extreme Mustang Makeover. It was a competition for unwanted Mustangs like me, all older every bit of 6 years old and still never touched by a human. I was one of 100 selected for adoption in the SEMM. The trainer that adopted me would have 100 days to develop a relationship and bond with me then we would go to TX to compete with my fellow Mustangs.

PART 2

Well, I was videoed, along with ~100 of my friends and our videos were posted on line for the adopters/trainers to view. Mary says she really was drawn to me from first glance, but she was certain with my color, solid confirmation and quiet disposition that I would be well out of her price range, she she drew her attention to other Mustangs. Well auction time rolled around and adopters were to call in to bid on the horse they wanted. Well, there were LOTS of adopters and the phone lines went crazy! Mary called in to bid on a horse before me and the line was busy for the longest time, she finally got through only to hear that her selected Mustang sold well over $1000...well over her price range. Luckily the man on the phone taking her bid was kind and let Mary stay on the line to hear the next few horses go through. She bid on a few more, again they sky rocketed in price. Mary was beginning to feel like she was never going to be able to afford a Mustang and my number rolled around. #34 Mary heard it and remembered really liking me, but she didn'y even try to bid this time, she was certain my price would jump like the rest. My bid climbed to $750..then it stuck...the man on the line said will you go $800?...She's staying at $750...will you go $800? Mary's heart jumped as she realized she needed to speak up, "BID" she said and the man on the phone said "$800" and it stuck. Sold to Mary Jordan lot #34 for $800! Mary was Thrilled! I was minding my business eating Alfalfa hay and wasn't to concerned then, but it wouldn't be long I would meet my new found friend and partner, Mary.

PART 3

So Mary was the winning bidder and apparently that meant I was headed to NC! Well, as I said I was raised in Wyoming, but was rounded up by the BLM and taken to Canon City, Colorado where I lived for 2 years in holding. I now needed to get to Miss to meet up with Mary so we could head home to NC. I was loaded in a big semi tractor trailer along with many of my friends and we headed East. It was a long ride, 22 hrs on the road. We were tired when we unloaded in MS, but we thankfully had a few days to rest and had plenty of water and hay to replenish our body and spirits. Well, Mary and her husband Mike were headed west as I was headed East! They arrived in Miss a few days after I did in the middle of the night. We were all sleeping as their trailer entered the pasture. When I saw Mary for the first time she was walking slowly looking in at all my friends with great curiosity. It was night time, but the moon was out and I could make out her silhouette. She was a small girl, short, only a hair over five feet and small framed. I sensed something familiar about her. Something I had felt before. Yes, I felt it, I knew it...she was with child. She was pregnant with a child of her own. Oh how I remembered those feelings. I take great pride in Motherhood and did everything in my power to raise my daughter well. I am thankful that the BLM allowed her to stay with me for so long and then helped find her a home. Most domestic horses have their babies taken away by at least 6 months, so having my daughter with me for a full year was wonderful. Had she been born in the wild she may have stayed at my side longer, but I would have likely become in foal yet again and given birth to a new foal while my yearling daughter was still nursing, that would have meant I had two babies nursing at once and would have likely gotten in foal yet again! Yes, being a Mother in the wild is quite the job...I am thankful the BLM let my daughter stay with me a year, but also thankful they found her a good home when she was ready....and kept all those wild stallions at bay! But I did love being a Mother and I just could sense this Mary was experiencing what I knew so well. I watched her exploring each of us, she was looking for me..... I began to realize that as she approached closer. It did not take her long and I heard her say, "Mike!, Mike I found her!..She is Awesome!...come See!" Well, Mike answered back that he wasn't sure they were supposed to be peeping in on the Mustangs, they might get in trouble, but after some coaxing by Mary he walked over. They did not come in the fence with me...they just watched me from the other side. Mary seemed in awe. She stared at me for quite some time. Many of the other Mustangs scurried about, afraid of her human frame walking around us, but I didn't scurry, I watched. I stared back at her, as she did me. I knew something was about to happen and I knew it involved all of us, it involved myself...the small girl that couldn't take her eyes of me...the man that seemed to be watching over us both...and the tiny sprinkle that was rapidly growing in the tummy of my soon to be partner and confidant. I wasn't sure what it would be, but I felt it would be something big.

PART 4

The next morning rolled around and just on the edge of day break there she was again. That small girl that had stared at me half the night was watching me as the sun came up over the horizon. My bay roan coat took on new colors as the sun peered through the trees on the horizon. It lite everything up in a blanket of soft glowing light. The dew began to dry and the other Mustangs rested quietly. They had grown accustomed to this girl as she had stood by their corral for so long the night before. Not long after the sun was up some other humans started to arrive. The other Mustangs started to move around as they saw the new humans approach. One human brought a pick up truck loaded with hay. Mary stood by my paddock as the other Mustangs were fed, she watched as the human tossed an entire bale in for me and the two mares by my side. One of the mares I was with was very dominant, she was the boss and that was ok. She was kind about it, it was just understood and as long as she was there she was in control. It was ok with me to let her be the boss, but the other mare...well that was a different story. She was kind of like that kid that wants to pick on you in school, but only does it when the teacher is not looking. And always seems to know how to pick on you, but yet not get in trouble for it. Well that mare was really getting on my last nerve. She kept pushing me away from my hay and with the top boss mare in the paddock with us, there was little I could do but stand back. So I did, I waited patiently to the side as the other two ate. I knew Mary wanted to toss some hay closer to me, she said she wanted to, but could not reach, but it was ok. I knew how to handle these situations, this sure was not the first time I had shared a meal, well waited my turn to share a meal.



As the sun grew higher in the sky folks started loading up Mustangs in trailers. They would back up their box trailer to a shoot type set up where the Mustang was herded into by a few humans with a plastic bag tied to the end of a stick. They would shake the bag loudly at the Mustangs as they approached the trailer. This made the outside of the trailer much scarier than the inside, so the Mustang would jump inside...Before long they came and got the boss mare out of my pen. Well, it dawned on me rather quickly that little miss aggravating "Pick on me" Bully of a mare that had been driving me crazy for days was now alone, just me and her...no boss mare anymore to tell us what to do. Well, I could not resist, I had to do it....I flattened my ears and charged after that bully of a mare. Ran her right into the fence I did! Didn't hurt her, but I want you to know I was the one eating hay after that and little Miss Bully stood her tail in the corner. She sure didn't try to bully me anymore after that!



Before long it was my turn to load up. The man walked in with the long stick with the bag tied on the end and walked behind me, quietly herding me into a shoot where I would find myself locked in for about 15 minutes. The Mustang ahead of me was not wanting to get on her trailer and was holding us all up, I bet you anything it was that little Miss Bully that had been picking on me all night...well, as I was waiting in the chutes I over-heard the humans talking. They were asking Mary if she had a halter for me. Apparently they put halters on some of us Mustangs while we are in the squeeze chutes and can not get away. Well, I heard Mary decline, she also asked if they'd leave my neck tag on...she said she thought it "Looked cool" Well, I chuckled to myself about that, but I was happy not to have any strangers grabbing at my face to put that halter thing on my head...before I knew it my gate swung open and I was sent through the chute towards my trailer. I did not miss a beat. I am no fool and after hauling from Wyoming to Colorado and Colorado to Miss, you do learn a thing or two about loading. I know the drill, they shake the little baggy at my rump and in I go.



I must admit, I was scared, before I always had other Mustangs with me. This time I was alone. I kept my head low, my body was tight and braced. I never whinnied or called to the other Mustangs. I knew there was nothing they could do. And even though I was afraid, I did have a good feeling about this small girl. She seemed kind and she sure seemed to like me...and that baby growing in her...it drew me to her. I knew how to be a Mother, I felt like this little human needed me...and maybe I needed her too. So with my tub of water, my soaked TC Safe Starch (from Triple Crown..Thank You Triple Crown Feed! The TC Safe Starch was perfect b/c it is fortified with added calories and nutrients onto long stem hay, which I was already used to eating...at that point I had no clue what concentrated grain was...sure do now though!) and my bedded up box stall off we went to the east coast. It was a journey no doubt...and it had just begun

PART 5

I watched through the slats of the trailer as we headed down the dirt road. I could see the holding pens grow smaller behind us. We soon were on the highway. It was loud, the roaring of the trucks remained steady as we drove. I was used to this part though, actually the bouncing of the trailer and roaring of the traffic was almost comforting. I had listened to it for 22 hours on the way here, it was familiar...familiar is comforting, even if familiar is frightening. I was alone this time. I hung my head low in the trailer and backed up so that my hip was pushed against the wall. I faced the rear gate, it made it easier when the truck & trailer stopped abruptly to shift my weight back, rather than fall forward. So with my back to the wall, braced securely I held my head low and rode.



They stopped every few hours and Mary would crack open my door to check on my water. She would dump out the old water and get me fresh, even when I had not drank any of it. It was nice to rest my legs every few hours, the vibrations of the trailer were tiring.



We must have driven at least 12 hours or more. At one point we stopped on the side of the highway, we were just barely out of the road and I listened as Mary and Mike talked. A tire had blown and Mike was changing it. It was a very busy area and tractor trailer trucks whizzed by me. They seemed even louder when we were sitting still. Mike must be pretty handy, because we were back on the highway pretty quickly. The vibrations began again and I braced for the last leg.



We finally arrived in NC in the middle of the night. It was pitch black dark and man was I tired. My legs felt like rubber and my ears rung from the constant noise. It was silent, finally silent. I heard Mary talking with Mike, she said she was afraid to let me off the trailer in the dark. Of course she knew I could see just fine, my equine eyes are superb in the dark, but she very well knew of her limitations as a two legged and that frightened her. She wanted to be certain my pen was secure for me and that there were no gaps between it and the horse trailer before I stepped off. She decided to let me stay on the trailer until day break. She replenished my water once again and brought my more hay (that tasty TC Safe Starch) I was so tired, it felt good just to be able to stand in the still quiet and rest my legs. I heard Mary open the dressing room trailer door and crawl up inside. She told me she was going to sleep up in the bed of the trailer so she could be close to me. She said she was afraid if she slept in the house she would sleep past day-break and she did not want me to have to stay in the trailer any longer than necessary. So both of us closed our eyes and quickly drifted off in the beautiful quiet the night offered.



The sun peaked up through the trees and I began to awake. I peered through the slats of the horse trailer in the fresh morning light and saw a brand new world. I was surrounded by horses! They were everywhere I could see. Oh how this excited me, I began to spin circles in the trailer, pawing after each circle or two. I rocked the trailer back and forth and before long Mary rounded the corner and peered in at me. She said, "So you are ready to get out of there huh? I would be too" She then backed the trailer up adjacent to the round pen. She pushed the panels up flush, so there was a clear path out, but no room for me to slip between the cracks. She then swung open the rear gate and stood off to the side, inviting me to step out on my own free will. I wasted no time, I briskly walked to the rear of the trailer and stepped down into the soft round pen floor. Once out of the trailer I walked more carefully. Taking slow, deliberate steps, gradually exploring my new surroundings. I smelled the ground, letting my nose drag the dirt as I walked circles in the sand. With in minutes I dropped to the ground and rolled. I rolled from one side to the other, oh how it felt so good to scratch my back and letl my muscles stretch. Mary watched from the rail and laughed. She told me, "You know my Granddaddy Burgess always said that a horse is worth another $100 dollars for every time she flips over when she rolls" Mary laughed as she said it and her eyes seem to brighten as she watched me roll. I thought to myself, that was a silly thing to say. Here we just meet and she is going to put a price on me, one determined by how many times I can roll over. Well, that's a two legged for ya. I have learned their thinking doesn't always make the most sense. But I have also learned that what Mary said was meant as a compliment to me. It wasn't that she really thought I was only worth $600 bucks for my 6 rolls over, she meant that it was a testament to me athletic ability that I could roll back and forth with such ease. She admired it, and she admired Me.



After I had satisfied myself by thoroughly embedding this new black Kelly dirt and sand deep in my coat I stepped back up on all fours and shook from head to toe. The dirt lifted in a cloud of smoke all around me and Mary laughed again. After a few more walks around the pen to smell the ground I laid down in the center and went to sleep. Mary said she was shocked to see me lay down and sleep so soon in such a strange place, but I am no fool. I am a Mustang, I didn't survive on my own in the wild all those years without learning something. When you are tired, you sleep, so I slept.



Later in the day, after my nap I spotted Mary walking towards me from across the field. It was a small comfort having her presence around. She was always quiet and spoke kindly to me. As she approached I saw something that frightened me greatly. There were 5 small critters surrounding her. They ranged in size from that of a prairie dog to one as big as a wolf! They scattered and bounced around Mary as she approached me. My eyes grew wide as they neared and I brought my head up high and let out a loud blow through my nostrils, a snort that would alert my fellow herd mates that danger was approaching. I watched intently as they approached and out of the corners of my eyes I took note of the surrounding horses reactions. Would they bolt in a flurry in fear of these strange creatures? There was stillness, silence as they all continued to munch on their hay, heads down and relaxed. I waited a moment and snorted, once again. Still nothing. These horses that surrounded me were either a bunch of fools and we were all about to get eaten or maybe they knew something I didn't. I hoped for the latter and relaxed a wee bit as they continued to draw closer. Mary walked all the way to the fence and leaned against. The critters continued to bounce around growling, barking and rolling atop one another. After a bit they quieted and started to lay down, scattered about Mary's feet. I began to relax, still not certain what these creatures were, but beginning to think maybe I had been wrong to blow such a loud alarm to the others. Not that it did any good anyway, they all pretty much ignored my clear warning of danger. Maybe they were right, maybe these other horses did know something I didn't. After a bit Mary walked off, I noticed her walk by one of the horses that was eating hay and run her hand down his side. He watched her quietly, following her with his ear, but never even lifted his head. It seemed so odd to me that a horse would allow a two legged to do such a thing. I would have shot away in an instant had she tried that number on me. Odd, it was very odd. But it was also peaceful, quiet, calm and peaceful. I dropped my head to eat some more of my hay.

Part 6

I liked that there were other horses all around me. They were in paddocks sprinkled about surrounding my round pen. There were even horses off in the distance, they seemed to be in larger pastures and it appeared green out there. Oh how I thought of the fun I would have eating all that grass. It looked like a never ending buffet. Back in Wyoming we would have to stay on the move all the time to find enough to eat. The forage was dry and rough, but it was all I knew back then and my body was used to it. We would walk for miles and when we found an area with grass to eat we would stop and keep our heads to the ground, grazing until it was gone. Then we would move on once again.



The horses in the paddocks around me were eating hay. Those critters that had followed Mary over to see me yesterday were still around. They were always around. They would scatter about the yard and sleep, stretched out on their sides in the sun. Mary told me they were called dogs and that they were kind to horses. I figured I had better keep an eye on them and make that decision for myself.



One of these so called harmless "dogs" came waddling all the way over to my pen. This one smelled differently than the others and looked a bit different as well. I backed off to the far side of the pen and watched her nudge her head into my water bucket. She was short, but very round. I would say as wide as she was tall. I thought of snorting as I had done before, but I decided against it. The other horses ignored me when I did it the first time anyway. I stayed as far away as I could though and watched intently.



She managed to get her head into my water trough and began to drink. She didn't look like she had a neck at all and she made odd "grunting" noises. I was certain this one was not a "dog". After she drank a bit she started tossing the water around, splashing it over the sides and onto the dirt. She kept on until my tub was dry and there was a puddle of mud in my pen instead. How rude and well, weird was that! She then started rolling around in the new puddle, scratching her side in the mud. I noticed that she never managed to flip over as I did when I rolled. I thought to myself that she must not be worth much in the eyes of the two leggeds, you've got to be able to flip over for every $100 bucks you are worth around here. After she got good and muddy, she stood back up. Her legs were only a few inches long and her belly just about drug the ground. She waddled away, looking rather silly with mud caked to only one side of her.



As the odd looking dog waddled off I saw Mary approach. She said, "Oh, so I see you've meet Samantha P". She informed me that Samantha P was not a dog after all, but a pot bellied Pig. The "P" in Samantha P is apparently for "Pig" How original, huh? I wondered to myself how many other strange critters I would meet in this new place. I was still very cautious of them, but so far they had seemed harmless. I wasn't about to let my guard down anytime soon though. I am no fool , I am a Mustang and I sure didn't survive in the wild of Wyoming all those years just assuming every new funny looking critter was harmless. I would make my own decisions regarding who I trusted around here. So far it was no one.

Part 7

Mary approached the gate to my pen. This time instead of leaning against it and watching me, she opened it and came inside. I watched her intently from the far side, wondering what would happen next. Any other time a two legged had approached me it was to push me away, to herd me to another location. Usually they would have a long stick in hand with a bag attached to the end. They would shake the bag towards my hip and I would take off away from them. They didn't hit me with it, didn't have to. I was more than willing to get out of the way of the scary noise and once I moved away from them they would stop shaking the bag.



Mary did not have a bag though, as a matter of fact she had nothing in her hands, but a soft rope coiled up in a small, loose bundle. Her hands just hung by her side relaxed and open. Once she closed the gate behind her she walked quietly to the middle of the pen. I drew back, as close to the paneled wall as I could get and watched her intently. From the center of the pen she looked at my hip and stepped a hair closer to me. I shot forward, away from her. The pen I was in was round, so instead of being able to shoot away entirely the rails sent me into a curve, a circle that surrounded Mary in the center. At first I ran, a hard canter, as fast as I could around the circular pen. Mary walked a small circle in the middle, she moved her body so that she remained behind my shoulder and towards my hip. After a few laps around I realized that Mary was remaining quiet and slowly walking her circle, but not approaching me any closer. She remained the same distance from me as I ran. Her gaze drifted away from my hip and down to the ground. I relaxed a bit and slowed to a forward extended trot. Mary dropped her head deeper as she gazed at the ground behind me. She continued to walk her small circle in order to remain behind my shoulder, but her energy become softer and softer as she let her arms hang limply at her sides and gazed down at the ground. I took a small comfort in her passive demeanor and I gradually slowed my gaits. I settled all the way to a relaxed trot, beginning to feel comfortable with her presence in the center of the pen. She was consistent, as long as I moved forward and followed the rail in the circle around her, she consistently moved to keep herself at the same place in relationship to my body. This consistency gave me a small comfort.





Just as I thought I had begun to figure out what to expect out of this new two-legged, she threw me for a loop! She steps forward, not closer to me, but parallel with me, until she was just in front of the point of my shoulder. It was only the difference in two steps forward, but I knew exactly what it meant. I immediately slammed on the brakes and wheeled around towards the fence, taking off in the opposite direction. I threw dirt in Mary's face as I began running quickly again, around the circled parameter. Again she walked her small circle in the center, staying behind my shoulder, remaining the same distance from my body as I ran. She then melted her body and sent her gaze to the round pen floor. The release my body felt as her pressure eased off me was immense and welcomed. I began to relax a bit and slow to a trot. I was now tracking right, which put Mary on my right side. I liked her there better than when she was on my left side as she was before. Because of this, I relaxed to a slower trot quicker this time. Not because we had done it before to the left, of course my right side did not recall that experience my left side had just had. No, I liked her better on the right side of me because I had few experiences in my past of two leggeds over there. Mary was new to me on my right side and so far she was making sense.



When I was rounded up in Wyoming and brought to Colorado to live I was freeze branded by a two legged. I was herded into a squeeze shoot and shut in tight so that I could not escape. The hair on the left side of my neck was shaved and a freeze brand was applied to my skin for a few seconds. It froze my hair follicles to the point that it would not grow back and I now have a permanent marking on the left of my neck. It is a way the two leggeds can keep track of me. There are so many Mustangs to be cared for. We are all given vaccinations and branded when we are herded up from the wild. It is for our own good, but just ask any screaming 6 month old 2 legged baby as they are getting their vaccines how much they like it! Shots are never fun and being branded isn't either. Honestly it wasn't the pain that frightened me so, the pain was not that bad. Shoot, compared to a hard kick from the boss mare when I accidentally invaded her space to much, compared to that it was nothing. But being trapped in the chute and having that two legged invade my space as they did, when before I had been expected to run away from them. Well, it just did not make sense, and what didn't make sense scared me. I did not realize it then, but those two leggeds back at the holding pens were only trying to help me. Vaccinating and branding me and my fellow herd mates was the best thing for us. I am very thankful to them that I never have had to experience any horrible illness that I would have, had I been left un-vaccinated. But it still did not lesson the trauma of the experience in having it done and as an intelligent Mustang, we never forget.



So, naturally, I was a bit more cautious of the two leggeds on my left side. That is where those experiences occurred. On my right side however I really had very few experiences with them. Other than moving away from the bag on the end of a stick I really had not been around them much. At the holding facilities we were in large herds and the two leggeds would come fill our feeders with Alfalfa hay, but they never tried to approach us or touch us as we intermingled together. So having Mary on my right wasn't so bad. She continued to walk her small circles to keep herself behind my shoulder and I continued to trot around the perimeter of the pen. As I began to settle she once again stepped forward, in front of my shoulder. Again, I whipped around into the rail changing direction yet again.



We continued this for quite some time. Mary would walk behind my shoulder and look at my hip. I would move forward and around the pen. Her walking, remaining behind my shoulder kept me moving forward. When I raced around quickly, she would then melt her body and gaze to the ground. The release of her pressure calmed me and I would slow a bit. Sometimes she would step in towards me and look at my hip again, this would send me forward faster as I felt her adding pressure to me. Then she would shift her eyes back to the ground and I would sigh and lick and chew as I slowed my speed. She continued to step in front of my shoulder to change my direction and I would spin around taking off the other way. We continued this and with each step I took I began to become a bit more confident in this two legged, Mary. As we moved around the pen things began to make sense to me, I understood what she was asking of me and it seemed she understood my reaction to her. I took great comfort in each time she backed her pressure off and allowed me to slow. I began to take comfort in the times she added pressure as well and I sped up. Rather than jetting off in fear, I would increase my speed, but remain more relaxed. Moving around this little pen was making sense to me.



When I was in Wyoming I ran by my Mother's side for an entire year. She watched over me, but she was firm. I respected her and I mirrored her actions. When we were grazing and the boss mare approached us, my mother and I would move out of the boss mare's way. It was understood amongst our herd that the boss mare was our leader and she never had to step out of our way, we always would step out of hers. I remember other times when my friends would run and play with me. Sometimes they would get carried away and get to close to my Mother where she was grazing. If they moved into her space she would shoot a forceful stare at them and step towards them to push them away. If they did not respect her request, she would spin around and kick out at them, kicking them hard if they did not move. It rarely took much and they got the hint. The next time the played near my Mother they were careful to respect her space, she was the boss mare to them and to me as well. I learned so much from her. I learned from all of my herd mates and tried to do my best to teach my daughter well too.



I found comfort in this two legged using the same communication that I used. It was all that I knew. Had she not used my language I would have had no idea what she way saying. Not knowing, being uncertain and confused scared me. I was thankful to begin to understand her, to communicate with her. I understood what she said and understanding gave me comfort.